Trust in Uncertainty
The story of Paul has always been an inspiring one for me. It shows how really any person can come to not only know, but believe in Christ, and seek with an earnest heart. How often do we too take on the character of Paul, either as ourselves or those around us? I know for myself, there are days where I want to know all of the answers, the who, what, when, where, why, and how. Especially when trying to plan for the future, it's difficult to face the unknowing. However, we must accept that God is greater than anything we've ever imagined, and can do the unimaginable, bringing us good through anything. When has God put something right in front of your face, when you were seeking an answer?
Today's First Reading states: 'But Saul, still breathing threats and murder against the disciples of the Lord, went to the high priest and asked him for letters to the synagogues at Damascus, so that if he found any belonging to the Way, men or women, he might bring them bound to Jerusalem. Now as he journeyed he approached Damascus, and suddenly a light from heaven flashed about him. And he fell to the ground and heard a voice saying to him, "Saul, Saul, why do you persecute me?" And he said, "Who are you, Lord?" And he said, "I am Jesus, whom you are persecuting; but rise and enter the city, and you will be told what you are to do." The men who were traveling with him stood speechless, hearing the voice but seeing no one. Saul arose from the ground; and when his eyes were opened, he could see nothing; so they led him by the hand and brought him into Damascus. And for three days he was without sight, and neither ate nor drank. Now there was a disciple at Damascus named Anani'as. The Lord said to him in a vision, "Anani'as." And he said, "Here I am, Lord." And the Lord said to him, "Rise and go to the street called Straight, and inquire in the house of Judas for a man of Tarsus named Saul; for behold, he is praying, and he has seen a man named Anani'as come in and lay his hands on him so that he might regain his sight." But Anani'as answered, "Lord, I have heard from many about this man, how much evil he has done to thy saints at Jerusalem; and here he has authority from the chief priests to bind all who call upon thy name." But the Lord said to him, "Go, for he is a chosen instrument of mine to carry my name before the Gentiles and kings and the sons of Israel; for I will show him how much he must suffer for the sake of my name." So Anani'as departed and entered the house. And laying his hands on him he said, "Brother Saul, the Lord Jesus who appeared to you on the road by which you came, has sent me that you may regain your sight and be filled with the Holy Spirit." And immediately something like scales fell from his eyes and he regained his sight. Then he rose and was baptized, and took food and was strengthened. For several days he was with the disciples at Damascus. And in the synagogues immediately he proclaimed Jesus, saying, "He is the Son of God"'(Acts 9:1-20).
Today's reading talks about the story of Paul, how a man who actively opposed God, and his journey towards finding faith, all starting with a vision of Jesus on the road. Sometimes God works in very clear ways, as this vision to Paul, prompting him to change. Then there are other times when God works through other people, and when we least expect it, trusting that we can in good conscience make decisions through influence. Things may not be clear at the moment, but it's all part of our living journey. Take some time to pray and ask God to be a light in your life, especially in uncertainty.
Today's prayer comes from 'Catholic Prayers' a prayer for trusting in uncertainty:
Lord, I feel afraid and insecure as I face my future. Help me to look at life with trust and hope, and to experience Your presence in the hardships of my life as I walk into my future. Through Christ, Our Lord Amen.