Are there times when we don't feel worthy of the faith we have and the saving grace God gives us? Every one of us has a conscience. We all know if we've done good, or wrong in our actions. Think about that one mistake you made, it weighs you down until you open up and confess doesn't it? I always think back to that one episode of Veggie tales with the big fib. She tells a lie, and as she continues to fib, the lie gets more and more tangled and grows. It becomes a mess. We're people who seek God, and so we are reminded continually that we are indeed sinners. However, because of God's saving grace and Jesus' sacrifice for us, we have the hope and ability to change, to seek forgiveness and redemption.
Today's Gospel states:'As he entered Caper'na-um, a centurion came forward to him, beseeching him and saying, "Lord, my servant is lying paralyzed at home, in terrible distress." And he said to him, "I will come and heal him." But the centurion answered him, "Lord, I am not worthy to have you come under my roof; but only say the word, and my servant will be healed. For I am a man under authority, with soldiers under me; and I say to one, `Go,' and he goes, and to another, `Come,' and he comes, and to my slave, `Do this,' and he does it." When Jesus heard him, he marveled, and said to those who followed him, "Truly, I say to you, not even in Israel have I found such faith. I tell you, many will come from east and west and sit at table with Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob in the kingdom of heaven'(Matthew 8:5-11).
In today's Gospel we hear how this centurion asks Jesus' help in healing his servant, but he doesn't think himself worthy for Jesus to come to his house. Jesus tells him what great faith he has to feel this way, that he is a true believer in his confession. We too are able to repent and seek forgiveness and redemption, through confession. God offers us this grace, but we have to want it, to seek it as this centurion does through his meeting with Jesus. Think about what we say in the mass: "Lord I am not worthy that you should enter under my roof, but only say the word and my soul shall be healed". Even in mass, we come before God unworthy, but through faith in Him we find strength and redemption. Take some time to ask God to help us become worthy people and seek redemption.
Today's prayer comes from 'all about' a prayer for Salvation:
"Father, I know that I have broken your laws and my sins have separated me from you. I am truly sorry, and now I want to turn away from my past sinful life toward you. Please forgive me, and help me avoid sinning again. I believe that your son, Jesus Christ died for my sins, was resurrected from the dead, is alive, and hears my prayer. I invite Jesus to become the Lord of my life, to rule and reign in my heart from this day forward. Please send your Holy Spirit to help me obey You, and to do Your will for the rest of my life. In Jesus' name I pray, Amen."