In the Face of Pride, Surrender
Every person is built with a piece of pride in them. Even the most humble person can hold their self-giving perception of themselves over others, without meaning to. We try so hard to be good and do good in our lives, that sometimes we take too much pride in the actual action, and don't even focus on the intention anymore, who we're doing the good for and the very action of doing 'good'.
We are told again and again to put others before ourselves. I know for myself, it's hardest to ask others for help. That's where I find myself most proud. Where do you find yourself being proud? The mistake with pride, is it is a sin in itself. It makes us focus more on ourselves and that much less on the people who could use our help. I've seen many daily Church goers who are dedicated to following their faith, and put in so much time helping their community. But when the time comes that they see a face in mass who isn't there on a regular basis, they avoid them completely and hold their head high instead of greeting them as a returning friend to the community.
In today's Gospel we read: "Peter began to say to him, "Lo, we have left everything and followed you." Jesus said, "Truly, I say to you, there is no one who has left house or brothers or sisters or mother or father or children or lands, for my sake and for the gospel, who will not receive a hundredfold now in this time, houses and brothers and sisters and mothers and children and lands, with persecutions, and in the age to come eternal life. But many that are first will be last, and the last first" (Mark 10:28-31). Jesus tells us that even if we leave everything to follow Him, which is nearly impossible for us, being humans, because we are all sinful. Pride falls into this category. A ll we can do, each and every day, is ask God to help us give ourselves away for Him, for others, just as Jesus did, so that we can truly call ourselves followers of Christ.
Today's prayer comes from 'Inspirational Prayers', a prayer for pride:
You are the God above all gods. Your name is Wonderful, Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace. You sit on the throne of heaven. When YOU speak, who dare change your plans? When YOU move, who dare stop you?
Lord, I have knowingly and I have ignorantly come against your will and your ways. I have spoken words of total surrender to you, and yet I have been so ready to protect myself from godly advice and godly change. I have been so ready to defend myself against humility.
Open my eyes to the blessings of humility. Let me not see humility as the world sees it, but in its beauty and fullness of joy.
I am comforted with the knowledge that you are full of mercy, compassion, forgiveness, and love.